Well, hello anyone who might actually read this! If you have been able to stop by my about page, then you should already know that I am an introvert basically. If not, then I just told you. I wanted to get deeper into that because that is something that has been bothering me lately. So, if you care about how I feel at all or if you've had the same problem in life and you're interested in hearing someone else's perspective, please continue to read!
Pretty much all of my life, I have been the shy and quiet girl. I've never really been the first person to make conversation with someone unless I've already been close to them. Even when I am with my friends and everyone is talking, I could probably go the entire time without saying one word. I'm a listener, an observer, I guess. Mostly, I just don't feel like anything I have to say is very important. Or I just don't completely understand what is being talked about.
Yes, even though this is the way I am, I find it to be just as ridiculous as you might. If you don't find it to be ridiculous, I thank you for not being so judgmental. I guess we are all our own harshest critics. But if I could get over thinking no one is going to care about what I say, I could just talk to people. Or if I could just simply ask questions if I don't understand, I'd be fine probably. I don't know what has happened to me in my life that has made me feel this way about something so simple, talking.
So, I consider this to be a bit of a struggle I have going on. I did used to be a lot worse maybe. I think having a job has really helped me talk to people more and helped me to not be as awkward as I once was. I'm still awkward, though. So, I just need to start speaking up. It's just a bit hard because I really am very soft-spoken and I'm not sure how to change my voice. I just have so many excuses.
If you are like me, though, you probably make these excuses for yourself, too. But I'm basically writing this so that I can actually have it written down that I am going to try to get through this struggle and begin to speak up more. So, if you're having this struggle, join me! I really just want to be able to encourage myself and people like me to try better at this if it is something that bothers you.
It could be something as simple as just waving at someone when you see them or actually saying hi. Even if it's just an acquaintance, just do it. Because I know we all walk by those people that we're not sure if we should talk to, so we just pretend to not see them. Just smile and say hey. They're not going to think you're weird. It could actually probably make their day. Just think about a time that someone has said hey to you when you weren't sure if you should pretend to not see them or make eye contact. Then, they smiled and said hey to you. It made you feel good! It made you feel noticed and you just thought that person was nice. So, we could be those people.
Seriously, though, I want to start doing little things like this to boost my confidence in having conversations with people. I know I didn't make much of a point in this post, but I will continue to talk about this. I just want anyone like me to read this and feel encouraged to take part in this with me. Thanks for reading!
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